Defying Thoughts: January 2013

Is it just me or the year has really been fast? This year has been great overall. It taught me a lot... A LOOOOT. Things have changed. I've changed and I am so proud of myself!!! I know my friends are too :) So let's have some recaaaaap! ;)

I started 2012 with a cold heart. Feelings disregarded and mind's lost. I was this lost kid who only cared for good times or rather the times that would make me atleast forget what was really for me to think of. I only had four subjects that time. I wasn't even giving much effort for me to pass. I was just going to school for the sake of attending class. My mind's blown away. My heart wasn't even there to keep me motivated eventhough I really wanted what I was getting myself into. When the school year was about to end I had already prepared myself for transferring to another school for I know I don't deserve to be there. Compared to other students, I can actually label myself to be a misfit.

I think I almost have it all done. I have all requirements with me; people were asking me if that's what I really wanted. Do I really have to transfer? At that time I was really doubting my capabilities. I am not sure if I could really make it. The truth is, I was too afraid of what I need to do; of what I must do. And also afraid to be slapped in the face that "Dude, you don't belong here and stop acting like its gonna happen". But on the other hand, I know if I just keep my head on the goal I could actually make it. What made me stay? It was clearance day, went to UST and my prof was there and talked me out of it. And he made me cry! Before in our pracs he was actually waiting for me to cry but I don't cos I always laugh haha. So then when he wasn't actually trying to make me cry, I cried cos it was nice to hear from someone who's great and hello a---prof?? To say that I should stay and if it is for me to transfer give it another sem if I fail then go, transfer and I pass, just continue. AND SO I STAYED :))

Summer of 2012 was hmm meaningful. For the first part of it was a drastic one. It was something that I have never thought of happening. Emotions went overboard. And yet after all I tried to just leave everything behind when we went for States. My friends told me it was a great opportunity for me to get over everything and try to build up myself. And YES it was really a good start for me.

My goal for 2012 was to:
1. FIX MYSELF (in every way)
2. better relationship with my family

I think I did pretty well. Oh no wait. I did great! :))) I'm really proud of who I am now. Starting with right setting of priorities. I passed all my subjects last sem. With attaining your goals it really goes with sacrifices. I have a better relationship with my family. Right now, I can say that they know everything about me.

Hmm I'm proud to say I stopped smoking since my birthday. It was my gift for myself. And upto now I haven't done it again and I am not in any way tempted :D So for the others who doesn't believe they could really stop their vices...
FIRST STEP: WANT IT :)

This year I have closed my doors with romantic relationships. My mind was fixed; I don't want to involve myself with hmm "love". Not that I'm afraid but I know it would just be a distraction for me and I guess I haven't met someone who could atleast change my mind. And I spent the entire year building up the Agnes that I wanted to be and if the time comes that I'll meet "Mr. Right"; I know I may deserve him :)

Oh! Since we're on the batch 2015... We met new people. During the first sem; since we don't have much subjects we don't talk to others that much. But now, we're getting to know people better and I can say these people are really nice. (eventhough they're bullying me LOL JK) I'm looking forward to getting close to them. I hope they are too >:))

This year was really a blast and I'm excited for another year!