I waited for this time to come. Never have I thought of telling this to my mom or to anyone in our family. It was really scary to imagine what would be their reaction if they knew about it.
But... things just happen all we can do is to accept :)
My mom and I are just having a casual talk over coffee and we were talking about how my brother's such a pain in their ass (well cos my brother isn't acting like his age but we love him so much haha!) and she was ranting with full emotions as if I'm the one involved (Now I know where I got that trick) blah blah enough of the side comments. Okay proceed; and so typical sibling act: "Eh bakit si *insert name of sibling here* di mo din pagalitan!" My brother would always say that when he's being reprimanded by my mom. And all I can say is "Wala naman akong ginagawang mali" And this made me think that yeah, I wasn't really doing something wrong unlike before. And sooo we talked about random stuff like my college friends, highschool friends and something about my past. Then I suddenly thought of saying this HUGE thing to my mom. I felt like this is the moment where I can tell her and so she'll understand the way I am now. I was hesitant at first and even uttered the words "kaso natatakot ako" and eventually I told her and I was crying in front of my mom. I don't actually know the reason why I shed those tears. I can't stop crying while I was telling it to her. And her reaction was "Bakit hindi mo man lang sinabi sakin dati pa?" and all I said was "Ayoko ng gulo". I know that when my family gets to know what happened they'll really do something about it. Maybe the boys will try to get even. My mom was really pissed off for what happened I didn't even told her the whole story cos I know it would be way too much for her to handle. She was really mad and I told her "Let it go, I didn't even got mad. Yes I was hurt but holding on to anger would just haunt you and bring you down."And all she said was "Hindi ka nagagalet, abnormal ka talaga" hahahaha
It seemed like I was able to jump out of the box and finally passed through the wall separating me from my family. It really feels good to let them know what had happened to you and let them realize it changed you.
Well, I'm still living with no regrets and I am thankful for everything. Even if those moments were tough and made me fell off the ground... yes, I am thankful. You don't know how much I learned from all the things that got me this far.
Isn't it amazing how He makes us learn things on such experiences He lets us in?
I am always amazed on how He works on touching people's lives :)
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