Happy Heart

Morning of December 26, 2012
I was half awake when my phone lit up. There was a notification. I got a message from someone. I thought I was dreaming; I thought I just fooled myself thinking I'd get a message from that person. When I opened it; I saw a full page length of message. Not being able to finish what was there, for a moment my eyes started watering. Oh God knows how I've been waiting for this time to come.

After reading the message I was too happy and I wanted everyone to know. I kept on saying "Sobrang saya ko! Shockssss ramdam mo ba? Ang saya ko talaga! :)))"

Holding on to anger was never my thing. I barely get mad. But that incident was one of the worst. Losing one's composure. Crying over things that you thought was of substance. Doing stupid decisions and making the situation even worse. And the hardest part was, the thought of losing a friend who was really close to your heart.

This "thing" grew distance between us; who are mainly involved. Sadly, people around us were affected too. It has been months now and I really miss her. I miss them. I miss the friendship that was once there before everything had happened. It will always be remembered and will always be special to me :)

A week before, I was already thinking of sending them messages but I did not push through it. Something pulled me back. Maybe it wasn't for me to make the move. Maybe it wasn't the right time just yet. I was secretly hoping that this time the first move wouldn't come from me. I constantly prayed for it. God knows how much it would mean to me. It may be a little difficult to comprehend my thoughts about it because normally, people would just take it in a wrong way. Maybe it would be "awkward" but the grudge was long gone for me. Nothing good will result from it. We all know that.

For all the things that had happened; I've learned to forgive without receiving an apology. And receiving one would be extra special :) Lord, you never fail to surprise me. You keep on blessing me with wonderful things. I would surely end 2012 with a happy heart. Thank you for the overflowing blessings I couldn't be much happier :)